you have all the right to miss me (09-21, 16:26)

Esme, you have all the right in the world to miss me, just like I keep on missing you. How could I forget that you were there? And I don’t see it as anyone’s fault.

you were not alone (09-21, 15:49)

Oh just stop it! Don’t talk to me in this fashion, like this was all your fault. You were not alone there, remember? It was me loving you so. And now I have my fair right to miss you

an empty hull (09-21, 15:49)

Don’t miss me, Esme. What is left of me is but an empty hull. Everything that might have been worth missing stayed behind when I left V., stayed with you.

EVERYTHING (09-21, 13:56)

Miss your EVERYTHING

miss your (09-21, 13:47)

Good to hear. Get in touch, if you feel like it. Miss your voice. M.

I am alright (09-21, 13:28)

Please don’t worry. I am alright. Have been home recently. Les is here, things are fine. E.

it is only one month

Life without Esme is starting to become reality. The throbbing pain, the checking of e-mail and SMS just to find nothing, the memories becoming threadbare – all these signs of a love lost are closing in on me. I try to keep them at bay by re-reading our story, by re-arranging reality, by re-inventing history.
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