one of these days

esme
one of these days we should do that. just a walk, and some talk, like we’ve done before.

no coff?

Wanting to see you is not about lies, Esme. It is about us. It is about what we felt for each other, and about what I still feel for you. It is not about promises, it is about hopes. And about a dream.  

love unplugged

It’s only 13 more days. It’s only 13 more days before I’ll touch ground in V., before I will be close to Esme again, see her again, talk to her again. 13 more days. How shall I live through them? I spend my time trying not to think about this, hunting for a hotel on [...]

love, or madness? (09-09, 18:06)

This morning, they were playing our song we aint got, in a store. Almost Lover. Sound quality was lousy, just how I felt.    

four hours that changed my life (09-08, 22:55)

one week ago we spent four hours on the phone. four hours that changed my life, because in the end I knew I had to see you. I do not regret this, in spite of everything.

today is when we are over

I knew this day would come. I didn’t know it would be this day. But what is a day when it is the day when it is over? What is a day when it’s over, and you learn that the other life, the reason that it will be over, is just as over?
“Today is when [...]

sleep well. I won’t (09-07, 23:37)

Alone in my bed, I kiss you good night. We only had a single night. It feels like a decade. I kiss your feet in awe for you being yourself, for waking me up from a dream and showing me reality.    

the day after leaving her

“I love you”, I texted her at night. I love you. I love you. I LOVE YOU, that’s what I wanted to shout out loud. I was in despair. I was in disrepair. I was destroyed. I was in love.    

kissing, talking, making love (09-03, 19:07)

I am so empty. After doing away with the cat kaka, I fell asleep. Its 7 oclock now. I did have a wonderful dream. About us spending 26 hours together.

do you want me to come? (09-02, 01:25)

I want you to be happy. If you are happy in tears, thats ok. Lean on my shoulder, baby. Miss u already. Like crazy. Dont want to think about tomorrow, if tomorrow will be without you. Do you want me to come, or shall we try playing it safe? We both think we know the [...]