epilogue

having a late dinner yesterday I kept asking myself: “was it a stupid idea to come?” you’ve made it pretty clear before that you didn’t want to see me, or talk to me, or even text me.
I came nevertheless, and I still think it was the right thing to do.

time

esme
it is good to learn that you are happy
I always wanted you to be happy
I always wanted you to be happy because of me. together with me
I always wanted us to be happy together
still want it today
but obviously I failed    

nothing can kill you when you’re already dead

I read Esme’s mail on the market square of the big city in the south. I had just been talking to some guys who had created a web community for youths but behaved as if they were twice my age. On my way to the airport, I had stopped by the market to buy some food [...]

Re: knight

i am alright yes. les is here, he got cold so i am nursing him.
mick, what happen to me made me realize how fragile and vulnerable people are
i have always thought i was a strong person, indifference was my armour… but once you open your heart to one person, anyone can come in.
when he looks [...]

chest split wide open (08-29, 12:47)

more personal? look at me: chest split wide open, skin stripped to the bone. in a crevice left-centered you see the fist-sized muscle pumping heavily, trying to cope with whats running in the blue and red veins radiating out of it and what, if placed under a microsope, all burns down to one thing: Y.O.U.