one of these days

esme
one of these days we should do that. just a walk, and some talk, like we’ve done before.

Re: walk in beauty

i need that and i am endlessly sorry
to begin with. again. i’m sorry
that night on the 14th of june when i was about to turn 24  i had a dream.

beads of love

“Almost Lover” again. On both flights. I enter the plane, there is A Fine Frenzy in the air. On the flight back from far Southwest, I see my city full of golden beads. I see you in our hotel room.
I feel a knife in my guts. I feel you. I see you.    

don’t stop spinning

 I have finally found a place where I can rest my head although I doubt that I will find something worth being called rest. Ironically, it is in close distance to the hotel I stayed in alone and with Esme. I don’t like irony. I am a cynic. Of that, I will have more.

retracing the past, part 1

I had to find out that the hotel I had booked was not the hotel I was booked for. With a brief description and a general wave of the hand, I was sent out again into the night to venture forth in my attempt to find lodging.

the third leg

Two hours after I had touched ground in V. I was drunk. I had lied my way to this place, and there I was. It was dark already, drizzling and cool. Summer, so it seemed, was gone for good, and so was something else.

after the race is before the flight

I didn’t believe it would change a thing. But I did it anyway. I had Esme’s number registered for a marathon result service, and so she got a message from me. But I got a reaction after all.

love unplugged

It’s only 13 more days. It’s only 13 more days before I’ll touch ground in V., before I will be close to Esme again, see her again, talk to her again. 13 more days. How shall I live through them? I spend my time trying not to think about this, hunting for a hotel on [...]

tomorror never comes (09-09, 19:49)

I call for both.Love and madness. It feels like ages since your lips touched my skin.We are out for dinner now.In three hours we will go back to the hotel to make love the whole night.  

burn

My longing for her kept on burning inside of me the whole day. Waking up in the morning, it is so strong that I make love to her with eyes closed. Calling her name, I let her take control of my body and make love to me just like she did some days ago. Exhausted, [...]