everything that rises must converge

I didn’t get it the first time. Probably no one would have. Second time I had a hunch. Third time gave me reason to read it fourth time. Then I got it. Hit me like a sledge hammer. Can’t be, I thought. Can’t be.
But chances are, it not only could, but it is. And there [...]

Re: looking back from a distance

now i know how it feels to be everything and nothing to someone

i couldnt let you leave me once again
last time you did i have nearly died
this story could never have a beautiful final for it has started with a final     

time

esme
it is good to learn that you are happy
I always wanted you to be happy
I always wanted you to be happy because of me. together with me
I always wanted us to be happy together
still want it today
but obviously I failed    

nothing can kill you when you’re already dead

I read Esme’s mail on the market square of the big city in the south. I had just been talking to some guys who had created a web community for youths but behaved as if they were twice my age. On my way to the airport, I had stopped by the market to buy some food [...]

Re: knight

i am alright yes. les is here, he got cold so i am nursing him.
mick, what happen to me made me realize how fragile and vulnerable people are
i have always thought i was a strong person, indifference was my armour… but once you open your heart to one person, anyone can come in.
when he looks [...]

I am alright (09-21, 13:28)

Please don’t worry. I am alright. Have been home recently. Les is here, things are fine. E.

pregnant (09-13, 13:57)

I am pregnant. Les is coming tomorrow.Never could we decide anything on our own,my love.So there is life that provides the decision

today is when we are over

I knew this day would come. I didn’t know it would be this day. But what is a day when it is the day when it is over? What is a day when it’s over, and you learn that the other life, the reason that it will be over, is just as over?
“Today is when [...]

did I kill the happiness? (09-07, 14:33)

Love, I know you. Know you better than 3 weeks suggest. Never thought you to go and marry. But to find out about your feelings. What had changed towards Les, or not. You were so happy when you told me about him. Did I kill all this happiness?    

you know me better than that (09-07, 14:19)

What exactly hits you hard?The fact that i dont want to spend the rest of my life with someone i do not love?You know how i feel about you..