leaving on a jet plane, vol. 2

By noon, I will be at the airport. In the evening, I will be in V. Three days later I will be back in the office. Where all of this is gonna take me, I will know when this weekend is over.

the texting days are over

First thing every morning when I wake up I reach for my phone to check for text messages. I switch off the sound for the night so I never know. But I know these days, know without checking. I just don’t admit it.

time

esme
it is good to learn that you are happy
I always wanted you to be happy
I always wanted you to be happy because of me. together with me
I always wanted us to be happy together
still want it today
but obviously I failed    

worst case

it could not have gone worse, could it? I can only try to imagine how you felt on the phone.I probably wouldn’t even be close. sorry. really. 
I’m so sorry.    

poor connection (09-13, 19:22)

Esme, sorry for the connection. I will call your later from my stationary phone, 10 pm your time. Ok for you?

four hours that changed my life (09-08, 22:55)

one week ago we spent four hours on the phone. four hours that changed my life, because in the end I knew I had to see you. I do not regret this, in spite of everything.

I will always love you (09-07, 13:50)

I touch your face
every time I use the screen of my phone
you look up backwards at me
as if surprised
I will always love you
no matter what

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou

you have none unread messages
your lovers phone is switched off
do you want to kill me????    

the call

We spent four hours on the phone. When I dialed her number, the sun was still out. When the line got dead for the last time, it was in the middle of the night. I started out sitting in an armchair. I ended up rolling on the carpet on the floor.
I had called her first [...]