looking back from a distance

looking back from a distance, the trip was a desaster. V. is your city, because you live there. it is my city because you live there. and it is our city because we had what we had, if only for 26 hours and two weeks before and some afterwards.
what brought me down most was [...]

broken backrest

Last time, we spend a big part of our common life in the park. A bench became our planet, the small green area with its trees and bushes and playgrounds and flowerbeds and the river were our world. That was then.

the third leg

Two hours after I had touched ground in V. I was drunk. I had lied my way to this place, and there I was. It was dark already, drizzling and cool. Summer, so it seemed, was gone for good, and so was something else.

the texting days are over

First thing every morning when I wake up I reach for my phone to check for text messages. I switch off the sound for the night so I never know. But I know these days, know without checking. I just don’t admit it.

knight

I remember touching you for the first time. Kissing you for the first time. Never wanted to touchkiss anybody else. Still don’t. Airports will never be the same. Airports have no meaning if there are no steps and no taxi stopping and no you flying out towards me.

safety glass

there is no back to normal. from the outside, life looks pretty much now like four weeks ago. but it isn’t. it feels different, feels wrong. I’m a zombie, cornered, insulated from my surroundings.
I’m in a bubble again, but this time the bubble is for me alone. I’m living on your love, but I [...]

I will always love you (09-07, 13:50)

I touch your face
every time I use the screen of my phone
you look up backwards at me
as if surprised
I will always love you
no matter what

longing for the healing hand (09-06, 14:03)

My day is constant throbbing pain. No remedy at hand. Acids eating me up from inside. Longing for your healing hand. And missing the touch of your lips.

craving for your touch (09-06, 00:28)

You are once in a lifetime. Honored to be loved by you.Blessed to be loved by you. My whole self will be craving for your touch.Everyday i will be waiting for you to come back

RE: 14

i dont care anymore
nothing in this world is comparable to you
the rain is for everyone
your touch was just for me
since you are gone i look ugly
and this town looks ugly also
we so miss you
09-05, 21:37